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Namine's perspective (Kingdom Hearts)
I’m here trapped between these walls
and with time all my faith falls
Everyday i draw memories
But i was never part of these stories
I’ve commited so many mistakes
Things I never thought I’d make
But the truth is
tsixe ot tnaem reven saw I
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Losing myself ...
Hello, hello my name is Khu. I am a bit awkward, geeky , passionate , caring ,creative, my jokes are unfunny but I still like to make them and everything I do, I do it with all my heart.I love life and find happiness in small things.
Today makes 2 days that dad is gone… and at the same have my finals exams before graduating. The amount of support I have  received from my family and university friends is incredible. They are all here and they they won’t let me down.There is a certain dullness around me but I am not broken. Their support gives me strength to go keep going. Everyone at home is broken, but I can’t. I am the only one showing strength and if it I break down it will be a mess here. I have constant support of Cali, the girl I am dating for 2 months and my friends, I try to keep in touch the most time possible as loneliness will just make me overthink and this could only lead to bad things.
One month is gone now, I continue to do the things I usually do,
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Depression
Things that happen to people during depression
People say that time heals but for some people , time can bring them from bad to worse
They become self-destructive thus they cut-off from the world, which is wrong. You always need a helping hand.
Dark thoughts take-over and they are not able to see reality and lose track of it.
Confusion is at it’s peak and they don’t really know what to do, taking big decisions in this period will often lead to big mistakes.
People become addict to all sorts of pain-killers and you would be surprised to see how much that could backfire if you don't control the dosage well…
Extreme depression is something complex and their brain start functioning differently (more slowly if you want) and they will do things they never did when they were not suffering from it.
If possible, try being there for people suffering from this disease, even if it's hard...
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I’m here trapped between these walls
and with time all my faith falls
Everyday i draw memories
But i was never part of these stories
I’ve commited so many mistakes
Things I never thought I’d make
But the truth is
tsixe ot tnaem reven saw I
Namine's perspective (Kingdom Hearts)
Short text I have written from Naminé's perspective from the game Kingdom Hearts
Things I would say or feel if i was her.

Artwork by Nasallienna
Photo taken from: www.facebook.com/Nesallienna  
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Hello, hello my name is Khu. I am a bit awkward, geeky , passionate , caring ,creative, my jokes are unfunny but I still like to make them and everything I do, I do it with all my heart.I love life and find happiness in small things.

Today makes 2 days that dad is gone… and at the same have my finals exams before graduating. The amount of support I have  received from my family and university friends is incredible. They are all here and they they won’t let me down.There is a certain dullness around me but I am not broken. Their support gives me strength to go keep going. Everyone at home is broken, but I can’t. I am the only one showing strength and if it I break down it will be a mess here. I have constant support of Cali, the girl I am dating for 2 months and my friends, I try to keep in touch the most time possible as loneliness will just make me overthink and this could only lead to bad things.

One month is gone now, I continue to do the things I usually do, like dating, hanging out with friends and creating artworks. Everything seems normal outside  but deep inside I know that something is not. Having to always act strong is morally draining for me, It breaks me every night but I have to put up a smile in front of everyone else. Mum thinks I’m insensitive about the whole situation and out of the blue, starts aggressing me with the questions. This will be the first time I break down in front of the family.

Days are becoming darker, I have not yet found a job to be able to help the family and soon my sister will have to go to uni. I feel terrible for leaving mum alone on this. I have stopped living , all my thoughts are negative ones and I have started to cut off from everyone and everything. I no longer feel happiness and all this is taking over me. Maybe I am useless and will not be able to live up to the expectations they have for me.

Hello, hello is anybody out there? Or am i losing all i have? I am losing the passion I have for everything, my light has burnt out for a while and I see negativity everywhere. Life is so stressing that I believe it is not worth living...  Things that make me who I am have faded rapidly, just like the warmth of my falling tears.

Every night i make the same dream, I see him dying, he is next to me but I can’t do a thing. I start getting sick from all this anxiety, like wanting to throwing up after each meals and even starting to get some white hair. Maybe it’s my fault , I was never prepared and having high hopes that things would get better made me delusional.

Several months are passing…

Today I take anti depressants, like a lot… With time they are less and less effective.
One day I made a very big mistake, I took a lot of pills, to kill the pain I was feeling inside but eventually it backfired. Till this date I can’t exactly remember how it happened but I lashed out at everyone I met this day, , by saying things which I don’t mean or think,everyone including Cali, whom I had not spoken with for more than one week. Later on I tried to explain her what happened but I fail, she says that with time I have become a different person and I know it is true. All this is taking over me and this would be the last time Cali would speak to me. Would I regret losing her? Yes, Cali was one of the things which I held on to during my dark days and one of the only good things I had left. I guess she’ll never know how things were in my mind at the moment things messed up.

One more month has passed,I try to get on with my life, doing internships everywhere,trying to find something which will make life better. You know those moments where we have a lot of people in the room but you still feel alone and all you want to is to go back home and be with your family because you need their support. But sometimes they can’t do anything because they are in the same situation as you.

People say that time heals, but for me it worked out the opposite way. The more I tried to keep things to myself because I wanted to be strong , the more it broke me inside.
Have I lost myself in all this? I don’t know
But I pray that better days will come
Things that happen to people during depression

People say that time heals but for some people , time can bring them from bad to worse
They become self-destructive thus they cut-off from the world, which is wrong. You always need a helping hand.
Dark thoughts take-over and they are not able to see reality and lose track of it.
Confusion is at it’s peak and they don’t really know what to do, taking big decisions in this period will often lead to big mistakes.
People become addict to all sorts of pain-killers and you would be surprised to see how much that could backfire if you don't control the dosage well…
Extreme depression is something complex and their brain start functioning differently (more slowly if you want) and they will do things they never did when they were not suffering from it.


If possible, try being there for people suffering from this disease, even if it's hard...

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Hello, the artwork I will be creating are for people who are depressed; suffering from depression since the last few months i can say that depression is not only a dark period but also a confusing one so hopefully someone can relate to my work if he or she has problem to understand his/her feelings or maybe I can help his/her friends understand that person better and help him/her get out of it ... I will try to use my artworks to explain things in a simple way to show how a depressed person feels so that others understand and reach out for them.
Never give up on people, hope can bring a new beginning for them (:

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Welcome to Emotions-in-art :handshake:
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Thanks a lot for the llama

I love your art :3
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Sorabara Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
... Gosh.... You're art... Is so perfect ;O;
I will watch you <3
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Hello, and welcome to DeviantArt! I hope you like the community, and if you have any questions feel free to ask. Have a nice day!~
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Wish you the best.
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Welcome to deviantART! If you have any questions, or if there's anything you need, feel free to ask me! I'll be glad to help!

Also, you should really check out DestinyBlue's artwork, I'm sure you'll really like it! Click on her username that I just typed to go to her profile!
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